Amy aged 47

The hardest thing generally for me has been the figures, it’s the people who have died, in my opinion totally unnecessarily due to bad decisions, bad government decisions, indecision. All that stuff, you can, you can’t, you might, you won’t.  It made me really angry and I found it really hard.

It was just the two of us, me and my son, I had to be on it, I knew it was going to be for the foreseeable. Every day we did two hours work, it wasn’t easy. I had to get him on the computer to do his work, all though I’ve got a teaching background I’m not his teacher I’m his mum. That threshold was crossed mum/teacher, but my son was good he made me proud, he did what he needed to do.

Suddenly I didn’t have any work, the work was drying up, day by day students were just ringing up and saying sorry or it was out of their hands. I didn’t know what to do, I thought if we could just ride it through but everyone said you need to apply for universal credit, so I did and once it was sorted I didn’t have to work.  All I had to do was get up, make sure the place was clean, look after my son get his two hours done, have fun, and be with him and I wasn’t tired! Before the pandemic I had to rush back from places to pick him up, all of sudden I didn’t. Once his two hours were done, we just messed about, we sat on the doorstep had ice pops, read books, listened to music, cuddled a lot, watched films, got all the board games out, That was good. I still kept some sense of normality, bed time and stuff. I reminded myself and my son weekly we are fine, we are healthy, we are doing the right thing.

In winter its was different, as far as I am concerned being out is important and we do that as much as possible, we are always out on the bikes or walking. We were in, nothing open, nothing to see, nothing to do.  My son started at secondary school and he hadn’t had that transition, he just went from being in year 6 to secondary, he was making new friends but he couldn’t spend any time with them.  There was a lot of work from his school and it was full on, I think in many ways they hadn’t made allowances for what had gone on, they just went right, here is all your work, and there he was in front of the computer again from 8.30 till 3, work, work work. 

I love to cook and I did a lot more cooking, my son got more involved as well, we tried a lot of new things, A few friends got involved in this and I found myself doing something completely different. I had always cooked but I’d never sold it before then suddenly I had a few friends asking what would you charge for this?  That was really good. You find a new outlet for stuff, you totally adapt.

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